Day 22: Meditation challenge update

Today, was an easy day. I woke up around 4 am so I did go for my usual morning walk as it is not a training day.

I did fast for almost 23 hours. Yesterday, I finished my meal around 2pm and today, I had my lunch at 1pm. I really enjoy longer fasts these days, but I don’t do them often as it is still difficult to have my required food during a short feeding window. My digestion has improved, but not completely healed.

Today, I am making bone broth. It will cook in a slow cooker for 24 hours. It’s super healing that’s why I drink it. Sometimes, I think that it’s because of bone broth that I am not in a hospital but at home leading a normal life. It has been a long healing journey, which is still continuing.

Yesterday, I had a good meditation. But not a single day has gone by when I haven’t slept during the meditation. It seems that I needed to rest, so this was a good challenge for this month.

I am still thinking of what activity to take up for next month as a challenge. I have quite a few in mind, but I want to take up one by one so that they become a habit.

Now, I am going to sit for my meditation

Welcoming 2020: With hope & gratitude

Although I do want to reflect on how the year has gone by, this is a quick post to wish Happy New Year to all my readers and share some highlights from my year.

2019 started with a lot of promise but not everything went as I had planned. I am okay with that. I think it is important that I tried, even if I didn’t reach all the goals.

Health-wise, I wanted to lose weight. But that didn’t happen. I managed to lose some weight, but then I gained some as well. In fact, right now I have gained a kilo because I have been eating inconsistently. However, I have mainly put on muscle and my body fat percentage has gone down a bit. This year I would like to lose weight.

I have certainly managed to develop a consistent exercise routine. I have always loved exercising and am happy that most days, I find a way to include exercise in my day. I mix it up with walking, cycling, swimming and yoga. I try to do some form of exercise at least 45 min to an hour every day.

In the first half of the year, I managed to do a lot of reading and writing. However, after about 6 months or so, I lost the habit. Somehow, work and then a lot of other things took over. This year, it is my goal to be more consistent.

A couple of years ago, I started learning music, so one of the highlights this year was singing a raga on stage with live music. I have always been engaged with some form of creative arts, but music has not been one of them. I never thought that I could sing on stage. I truly feel that I have overcome a big fear by singing on stage.

I also started teaching this year, which I really enjoyed. For majority of my career, I have taught. However, for past few years, I took a break so it was good to get back to the classroom. I hope my students enjoyed my teaching as much as I enjoyed learning from them.

I connected with lot of good people in real and virtual life. I am enjoying chatting with a lot of like-minded people on Twitter. I have been expressing and sharing on Instagram and Facebook as well. However, I have to say that I find Twitter to be the most engaging.

I didn’t do much traveling this year but I managed to do a couple of weekend long writing retreats. These were a great opportunity to learn the intricacies of writing and also meet with like-minded individuals interested in taking their writing forward.

Towards the end of the year, I had to move apartments. I moved to a different neighbourhood in Mumbai. It’s only been a couple of months in new area and I must acknowledge that it has totally changed my experience of the city. The two neighbourhoods are completely different in what they have to offer. I think I already prefer the area I am now.

Even though I may not have achieved everything I set out to, I am grateful that I have accomplished what I have. I am happy that I tried. Through it all, meditation has kept me grounded and anchored within.

To mark the start of the new year with an activity, I decided to do long walks. Although I walked around my apartment, I managed to walk around 15, 500 steps today. I also managed to have a good music practice today. I spent the better part of the day creating a bullet journal. I have always felt that I am better at finishing tasks, once I have a list. In 2019, there have been times when I have not been able to complete some of the tasks on time. I hope that bullet journal will help me manage my time better and keep me focused.

I have yet to form concrete goals. But one of my goals in 2020 is to blog more. Although I have been journaling in 2019, I think I want to share more on my blog in 2020 and see where it takes me.

What are some of your goals in the coming year?

Walking on a rainy morning: Welcoming the monsoons

Yesterday, I walked 18775 steps equivalent of 13.14 kms. After a week of nursing an upper back sprain and trying to complete an assignment my body was craving for exercise. It was a day for bootcamp, but it got canceled due to the rains.

As I stepped out from my apartment, I noticed the rain-soaked shiny but muddy black road, the rainwater had mixed with the dirt and garbage floating on the street. The small puddles of rain water and plastic stuck on the corners of the road a glaring evidence of state apathy and disregard of public property by people.

The road was already buzzing with daily commuters almost sprinting to the local train station in their raincoats. The sweepers were frantically cleaning the roads before the throngs of commuters would make it difficult to. I hurriedly made my way through the crowd with my umbrella opened, yet all the while mulling if I should close it. It was only drizzling, I wouldn’t be soaked. But I kept it open, because it allowed me space from the commuters whizzing by.

I made my way through the busy traffic signal on to the pavement. The shopkeepers running the small shops on the side of the road were now setting them up for business. I presume that these shops have existed for a long time, but they remain a semi-permanent structure. A small tin-shed serves as a shop space and each of them have the necessary furniture to run their business. Sometimes the shops change business as per the time of the day. Usually when I walk through the same path during lunch, I notice a couple of them convert into a food stall serving hot food to the people.

As I turned into the by-lane housing residential apartments on either side, I noticed how the scene changed drastically. The street was quiet with an occasional walker or a runner passing by. The tall flowering rain-soaked trees stood silent separating the tall residential buildings from the street. The cars were parked on one side of the road waiting for the owners to wake them up for the commute to office.

As I entered the park, I noticed that the rain water had made the mud pathway slushy. I wondered if I should go inside, because I won’t be able to walk on it. Then, I saw few people were exercising on the grassy area. The people count was less than usual but I won’t be all by myself.  I started walking in the middle of the garden on the grass where the earth was still solid.

As I walked, I decided not to put my earphones. I wanted to hear the sound of the rainy morning. The air was thick, not much was moving. The trees stood silent, waiting for a breeze. I could hear the birds faintly, a couple crows were looking for water in the water feeder. A couple of dogs decided to accompany me as I walked, but they remained silent. There was not much movement or sound.

Suddenly, a set of crisp commands jolted me out of my reverie. The instructor of the group exercising in the middle of the park was issuing exercise instructions for the group to follow. As I looked at the group, they looked dedicated. All of them dressed in bright-coloured exercise attire were following the commands in unison. An assistant helped correct their postures.

I decided to continue with my walking meditation. I now focused on the smell of the rain-soaked earth and the grass in the thick air that hung around me. It was different from what I had encountered on the busy city road, where the acrid smell of trash mixed with water compelled me to breathe shallow. But in the garden I could inhale, I could enjoy the fresh aroma of the rains mixed with earth, grass and trees.

As I walked on the wet grass blades, I could feel that my shoes and socks were getting wet. I felt instantly calmed by this connection to the earth and nature around me. I continued walking enjoying the cool sensation of wet shoes contrasting with the humid weather.

As I looked down, I noticed the pair of mushrooms that had sprouted in the grass. And then I saw they were not alone, there were many of them scattered among the grass. The whiteness of the mushrooms matched with the white flowers that dotted the shrub growing on one side of the garden. I made a mental note of taking their photo before I exited.

The exercise group was now dispersing, they were done with their exercise for this morning. A group of them noticed the mushrooms leading to delight and conversation. They stopped and started admiring them. One of them rushed to their vehicle parked outside the garden and got their phone. They clicked several photos of the mushrooms. Finally, they walked out.

For an instant, I felt silence, then I noticed another group exercising. I continued walking. It was almost 90 minutes since I started, but I was not tired. The change in the weather, although not perfect inspiring me to continue walking and soak in this morning.

Finally, I existed the garden after completing 10000 steps. I dreaded going back to smelly black roads buzzing with traffic. Mumbai, the city I live in is not the most pleasant city. Yet, it has pockets of charm about it. It allows for chaos and calm, madness and stillness. The mechanical routine city life makes people delight in the inconspicuous wild mushrooms growing among the grass as a symptom of changing seasons.

Kindness abounds in the city of Mumbai, despite the din and chaos

As I exited the mall, I stood outside along with the number of visitors trying to hail a cab. Several were parked and others whizzed by, but none were agreeing to take me to my destination a short distance away. There were others like me, who looked visibly exhausted with shopping bags in their hands, trying to get a cab. Every cabbie that stopped by was accosted by several people simultaneously. Most would decline after hearing the destination.

There are about 19,000 kaali-peelis on the roads of Mumbai, along with about 67,000 aggregator cabs. While the aggregator cabs have doubled in the past couple of years, the number of kaali-peelis are dwindling. When you want a cab for a short-distance, you can’t really call an aggregator cab because the cost of aggregator cab for short distance is much higher than kaali-peeli. Even if you try calling an app-based cab service they are not available when too many people are looking for cabs at the same location.

As someone who has been moving between different cities and countries, I have always relied on public transport. While Mumbai has a good public transportation system, the supply still remains short compared to the demand. Add to it the inadequate infrastructure that is unable to support the city’s bursting population. It is not that the city is not trying to improve. No matter, which road you travel on, there is some sort of construction happening. This constant construction adds to the pressures of commuting within the city. Despite the insurmountable issues, the residents of Mumbai go about their daily business nonchalantly.

After several cabbies who declined to drop me to my destination, I found myself standing in front of a cab competing with two ladies who were also trying to hail the same cab. Since they had to go long distance, the cabbie agreed to take them to their destination. I knew that my destination was on the way. I politely asked the ladies if they will be okay with dropping me mid-way. One of them was hesitant, the other readily agreed. The cabbie was also enthusiastic about dropping me mid-way, as it meant extra cash for him.

I was relieved to be in the cab and onwards to my destination. The lady who agreed to let me share their cab was quite warm, but the other remained reticent. Their contrasting reaction made me think of the typical ways in which Mumbai’s residents react to such situations. While one set of people remain kind and warm, tuning in to their compassionate self, the others become reticent and withdrawn in their own world away from the madness. The same people can react differently depending on their mood and situation.

But by and large most people express their compassionate self, despite the din and chaos of the city. They understand that the secret to live in this teeming city of millions, which is woefully inadequate to meet the needs and demands of its resident, is to be kind and helpful. And those who chose to distance themselves in situations that require helpfulness are perhaps dealing with their own suffering.

Despite Mumbai’s inadequacies, its people remain large-hearted ignoring the city’s faults. Whether it is flooding or it’s bad traffic situation, Mumbai residents know that they can win in this city by relying on each other.

Gestures of kindness, I feel, are a great way to connect with people. It creates positivity not only in the person receiving it, but also the person who extends it. These instances of empathetic communication brings energy and aliveness despite the harshness that exists in our lives.

This small incident that I experienced in Mumbai, made me realise how important it is to practice kindness in our lives. The more we practice it, the better we are able to connect with others. Do share any instances of kindness that you have experienced recently and how it has impacted you.